Memories of 2009

well, it has been an exhausting month for me and i just realise that in just a few days from now, i have to kiss this year goodbye and welcome the new coming year...

again, i try to recall some of my memories for this year...actually to be frank, the beginning of the year 2009 was a bitter experiences for me as i have lost my dear father just 8 days after the new year celebration. the pain of losing my father was so unbearable as i was feeling guilty, angry of my self of not coming early before he went into deep, long sleep.....and eventually leads to my resignation.

the decision was so quick and i didnt come up with any back up plan of my next move. i spent the entire following month crying my heart out and recalling my memories of my father. it was my husband who wake me up from my mourning season and tell me to move forward for a better life....

then, i started to find work and landed as contract teacher...well, never cross my mind that i will choose this career but who knows better?

i have been assigned to teach add math for 6 consecutive months...and...suddenly, another works were calling for me!!!and that's the starting point that my luck for 2009 started to change.i was in heaven..hehehehh...

i believe that in some point the luck is depending on the person itself..take me for example, i was so down and resigning from my current job at that time...i was feeling sorry for myself as i only see what i want to see at that certain angle.and at a time when i was happy and my mind became clearer of what i want to do, i can actually can make a good decision....

thus, i believe, for this coming year, eventhough things might look bad but hey, who know better?

Attitude (part 2)

Masuk hari tok genapla 2 bulan kerja2 pembinaan pagar rumah...masih agik lom siap2....aku pun sik tauk la apahal yang menyebabkan urang yang di kontrakkan untuk molah pagar ya terhegeh2 nak menghabiskan kerja nya...maka gaji dah beri...dan urang yang di amanahkan untuk menyiapkan pagar ya adalah kawan kepada hubby aku empun.

Tapi, sejak kedatangan 'seseorang' 2 hari lepas ke rumah kmk urang..maka segala kepelikan kenak dan kenak;

1. keja penaiktaraf pagar keliling dan 'gate' yang dah masuk 2 bulan sik juak siap2.
2. misteri kehilangan dua ekok pusak belang2 kesayangan aku.
3. pemusnahan 'beramai2' tanaman aku.

terjawab. Rupa2nya kawan hubby aku ya main 'taik!!!!'

Duit gaji yang kmk urang beri dgnnya, yang kunun2nya untuk upah pekerja, sik pernah diberikan kepada pekerjanya....yang menyebabkan pekerja ya agaak liat untuk bekerja...dan kerana marah sik diberi gaji, makan pusak2 dan tanaman2 jadi mangsa kekejaman manusia!

Huh, harapkan pagar, pagar sik disiap2!!!

p/s beware dengan urg yang kononnya blh polah construction, yang kelakar lebih....kadang2 banyak taik dari isik!

Hello Again...

It has been quite a while that i have visited my own blog......Yala, bercuti sakan bah 8 ari di kl-perlis-kedah-pulau pinang - n.9 bln 11 ya tek....balik2 pagar umah lom gik siap2, pusak2 ilang...keja melambak2 di opis...ya alu sikda mood mauk start..kelak2 la tunggu da mood baruk mula agik...

Attitude..

Sejak akhir2 tok aku slalu berdepan dengan org yang ada masalah attitude...aku pun sik la tauk pahal...kengkadang, mun kita selalu gilak berdepan dgn masalah mcm tok, kita yang ber problem nak?tapi masalahnya aku sik kenal pun org ya....huh?

so, aku pun terus la polah conclusion diripun...kenak nya dengan attitude nya mcm ya gilak..

1. kesian, engkali dah born like that..sik juak guna nak nganok..
2. huh, sapa ndakka nembiak ya...
3. mana kau la sia, janji bahagia...

"the person's attitude shows the inner self of that person"

I am sorry but....

"Yes, i am sarcastic and sadistic to you..and yes, i do admit that my words to you are harsh and straight to the point. But the truth is..."

The sentences above might describe some of your untold thought and here, allow me to come up with some explaination why is this so...

1. You are pissed off with that particular person..Macam bagus gilak jak urang ya..macam bagus jak, tapi sik bagus pun.Pusak bagus agik walaupun eksen sikit.At least da juak nya menggesel time mok makan.
2. I'm better than you..

But whatever it is, why we are having this malicious, demeaning kind of thought?

Most of all, might be given unfair judgement when we were young.It might due to our society level or the status wealth. So, the sarcastic words which have been trashed to us have been buiding up in our mind and body...Our spirit, surprisingly were being boosted to a new level of thinking skill, and made us better than spoilt child.

It is ok to have that kind of thought, but tell you, please, let the thought only be thought, being spoken only in mind, as we never knew, when the wheel will be spinning again...

Beras yang kehabisan..

Ari nie aku terjumpa satu artikel luahan perasaan yang sangat bagus untuk tatapan semua....

Berasku Telah Kehabisan.

Beras ku telah kehabisan. Aku ke pasaraya dan kulihat ada 16 jenis beras yang boleh kupilih. Aku hanya mahu beras yang mampu mengenyangkan perut tapi aku diberi pilihan untuk memuaskan nafsu ingin berbelanja. Lalu aku ambil beras yang paling dekat denganku. Beratur di kaunter bayaran(aku terfikir betapa siapalah yang kata kita tidak tahu beratur...kalau naik LRT macam ni tentu elok), aku lihat aku boleh pakai kad kredit, kad debit, kad bank atau tunai, dan aku ditanya ada kad diskaun atau kad pelanggan. Jika aku baru tersedar dari zaman darurat dahulu, mungkin aku hanya tahu kad pengenalan. Aku bayar dengan duit disakuku.


Aku tidak mahu digasak dengan pelbagai pilihan bila aku mahukan sesuatu. Jika ubat gigi ku habis, aku tidak mahu tujuh jenama dengan enam perisa yang dibungkus dalam lima ukuran, yang mana jika aku mampu menjengkuk ke empat pasaraya, mungkin aku akan jumpa tiga harga berlainan bagi barangan yang sama, malah tidak mustahil akan ada dua jenis tawaran istimewa, namun apa yang aku mahu hanya SATU. Ubat gigi ku dah habis.


Harga yang kita perlu bayar untuk mendiami dunia moden makin meningkat. Pilihan yang kita ada nampak makin pelbagai. Kita ditujah dengan segala macam benda yang memerlukan kita berbelanja. Jangan kedekut. Jika tiada wang, boleh hutang. Beli dulu, bayar kemudian. Bank tak bagi pinjam, along ada. Gaji tak cukup, duit kopi boleh cari. Moral bukan harta, nilai bukan wang.


Inilah yang dinamakan kemajuan, kemodenan. Aku memanggilnya kekalutan yang karut. Satu kemestian dalam masyarakat pengguna. Ijazah kini kian murah. Barang pula makin mahal. Belajar, periksa dan dapat sampah. Guna dan buang.


Kita diminta mencelup kemodenan dengan rumah batu yang berbahang. Perlukan kipas untuk angin, aircon untuk dingin. Guna elektrik untuk selesa. Tengok tv kini ada enam rangkaian percuma, ada astro lagi bergaya. Tidur atas tilam empuk, guna toto yang lembut. Nak menulispun kena ikut gaya haiku. Kita makin hilang budaya jati. Ini penangan globalisasi.


Aku terbaca di akhbar arus perdana tentang itu ini. Aku buka intenet nak tahu apa jadi. Kita perlu jadi makin versatil. Guna perkataan pinjam, pakai bahasa rojak. Bahasa pun boleh jadi perebutan hak. Jangan sebut soal bangsa, lagi parah. Seni peristilahan dah luput. Siapa yang merungkap ginjal? Apa yang bermain dibenak bila istilah itu diucap? Sumber mana yang dia pinjam? Aku pun nak mencipta istilah tapi seni itu dah pupus. Lebih baik cekup yang ada dari sumber pelbagai. Masyarakat pengguna perlukan pilihan yang bermacam agar dapat mengambil yang mana suka. Pakai dan lempar.


Baik kembali ke zaman batu gamaknya. Nak makan tangkap, kutip, tanam atau kena baham, lepas tu kena tanam. Itupun kalau berbaki, ada sisa lagi. Boleh juga tumpah bakti pada zaman moden, jadi bahanapi stesen janaelektrik untuk kita dapat pasang aircon tengok tv berselubung toto atas kasur empuk. Tapi balik-balik tengok cerita P.Ramlee. Nama samaran pun nak ceduk dari dia.


Kembali ke zaman kegemilangan. Ambil amalan padang pasir, lupa tentang buku panduan, lagi senang ikut-ikutan. Ambil budaya iklim sederhana, tak ingat diri, lupa asal usul. Bukan senang mahu tahu. Tidak mudah hendak ilmu.


Aku cuma lapar nak makan nasi. Nak tapau tak mahu, nak masak gas dah habis. Ada subsidi pun masih tak mampu. Nak masak pakai dapur kayu mana reti, nenek moyang kita boleh, kita pun boleh juga kan. Tapi teknologi tu pun dah hilang. Makin ramai yang tidak tahu menggunakan apa yang ada di sekitar, dengan apa yang dapat di sekeliling. Lagi pun apa kelas pakai dapur kayu. Habuk, asap, gelaga. Payahlah katakan.


Kini kita diminta membeli satu barang, dengan pek ekonomi yang sebenarnya tak masuk akal kerana perlu ruang dua kali lebih besar untuk menyimpan, dengan kuantiti tiga kali ganda dari apa yang kita perlu, sehingga tahan empat kali lama, malah silap-silap diiklankan sampai lima tahap, dan mungkin barang tu enam kali ganda berlebihan di pasaran, serta tidak mustalil tujuh kali dicukai berganda. Bayar pakai wang sistem perbankan yang nilainya bukan milik kita sebenarnya. Semuanya mahu yang besar, mega, dan super. Sumbernya mana? Pasaran modal, pasaran saham. Semua dah menjunam.


Aku tahu aku tidak boleh melangkah ke belakang. Aku pasti aku tidak mahu undur ke depan. Pilihan ku bukan bermacam. Aku hanya ada SATU kehidupan, yang akan lalu dalam pelbagai penjelmaan, yang itupun dimodenkan dengan kehendak nafsu mahu.Berasku telah kehabisan, dan aku telah membeli nasi.


[ Last edited by ZamZamAlaKazam at 19-11-2008 05:07 PM ]

Pyschic?Or merely logic?

When i was young, i used to tell my surrounding friends that i can read their mind, and predicted their next movement. My friends would just laughed at me, and even some of them just shoved the idea that i can tell their future!!!!!



I only learnt several years later that it just merely a logic thinking by me....

Choosing careers...

If we ask a child about what they want to be when they grow up, they will straight answer you...

1. doctor


2. teacher


3. pilot

I remember when i was in Primary school, i definitely will picked No.1 answer without any hesitation. Grown up with a medical historical family background, i'm used to formaline and hospital aromatic smell, and trust me, it feel like home to me.

When i was in Primary 2, i added another profession to my list. I wanted to become a teacher, not only a teacher to teach but also giving a guide in life..so i wanted to become more than a teacher, a ustazah instead!!(Hahaha...it always tickle me now thinking that i wanted to become a ustazah)

Approaching at the age of 12, i wanted to become a lawyer..Why? Because at that age, i know the power of talking...and the power of convincing people....But, lucky me, i only desire that profession only at that particular year, due to the definition of the profession instead..(hehe, ustazah aku ckp dulu, kalo nak backing orang, pastu orang tu sebenarnya bersalah tp kita tlg dia sehingga terlepas dari hukuman, kat akhirat nanti kita akan dihukum bersama...)Waduh, susah banget ini....

But,as years passed, i became uncertain of my own future, even i didnt know what course should i picked for University Level...i even considering to pick up marketing or financing as i'm good at calculating!

I chose Engineering instead.

why engineering??????

well, somebody has mentioned to me that the engineers are being paid higher than any other job...

But for me, it is because the nature of the work itself.

As a child, i always experienced to make something out of nothing. I still clearly remembered that i had collected can tins to make an oil lamp.I even constructed a hut for me and my friends to play not only for 'masak-masak' childhood games, but in the end it had turned into a cat house!!!(thanks a lot mum, you made us squattering around after that).

Still, after 3 years obtaining the BEng (Hons) Civil Engineering from a local University, i still uncertain of my own future!My goodness...

But i know, i need a job that;

1. Pay me good $$$$$.Of course beb, money makes the world go around and around...


2. Give a time of myself. So, i can use my brain to the maximum for critical and creative thinking.


3. No pressures. I cant work under pressures. I will crack under pressures.

So?^0^

what??!!!

Sejak akhir2 tok aku mudah panas baran...dan aku mudah piss off at people easily...due to what i do not know....its seem that i'm jumping and snapping at every moment...



i'm going insane.....huhu..

Perihal ketua....

Masa aku kecik2 dolok di sekolah rendah, ada ustaz ku madah....

"Mun awak mauk melantik ketua, pilih la yang beragama islam dan lelaki."

Aku of course la sik puas ati..aku ompuan bah...lalu la aku bertanya;

"Ustaz, mun ompuan boleh sik ustaz?Takut kelak orang laki ya sik layak jadi ketua.."

Sebab aku rasa orang laki dalam kelas ya sik dapat menandingi kebijaksanaan dan kepetahan aku berkelakar, jadi secara automatiknya dalam hati aku madah aku lah yang paling layak. Sikkan la aku yang bijak pandai di perintah dan mengikuti arahan seorang lelaki yang kurang bijak...Kelak jadilah keputusan ya pun kurang bijak dan pengikutnya akan sentiasa melawan & membangkang diatas keputusan yang kurang bijak ya...Nakkah aku jadi pembangkang utama gik kelak...Tapi bak kata ustaz ya tek, ompuan sik dapat jadi ketua...Maksudnya aku sikkan dapat jadi ketua la...So, penjelasan ustaz ya agik;

"Walaupun lelaki ya kurang bijak, tapi nya waras dari segi akal pemikiran dan boleh polah keputusan. Maka nya masih layak menjadi seorang ketua. Perempuan hanya boleh jadi penasihat jak. Macam awak kelak mun mauk berumahtangga, mestilah awak ikut kata suami.Sikkan suami mauk ikut kata awak. Sikkan la laki awak ber'imamkan awak?Even mun awak ada anak lelaki yang udah baligh kelak, dan waras dari segi pemikiran, masih awak jadi makmumnya, tapi bukan jadi imam.awak cuma boleh jadi imamah untuk perempuan ajak.dan awak pun hanya boleh jadi ketua untuk perempuan ajak, tapi bukan ketua utk lelaki"

*imam - lelaki yang mengetuai bacaan solat sembahyang orang islam
*imamah - perempuan yang mengetuai bacaan solat sembahyang orang islam yang perempuan sahaja.

Huh, panjang lebar penerangan ustaz ku ya.ku tangga kiri kanan nembiak lain macam sik paham jak pa di padah oleh ustaz ya..Aku paham, tapi masih sik juak berpuas ati dengan jawapan ustaz ya tek...Masih juak ku sik dapat terima kenak pompuan @ aku la tek sik dapat jadi ketua. Apa kurangnya orang puan tok sampai sik layak jadi pemimpin?Kan banyak orang puan yang bijak2 dan terer2 kinektok mun dibandingkan dengan orang laki. Mun sik cayak, cuba tangga statistik orang yang masuk Universiti yang mendapat ijazah sehingga PhD, banyak orang puan bah...

Apa kurangnya orang puan tok agik mun nak dibandingkan dengan orang lelaki..Apa yang boleh dipolah oleh orang lelaki pun dapat orang puan molah..Kecuali polah anak jak la....Tapi orang laki sik dapat melahirkan anak..yah..sapa terer agik?

Tapi, bila aku dah besar tua bangka macam kinektok....Semua nya masuk akal...

Sejak aku mula bekerja sampai kinektok, dah berbagai-bagai ragam orang dah aku jumpa...Ada nang stail ngegeh, ada yang best gilak...tapi sedih, keja best menunggu jadi terpaksa juak ku resign..

Tapi, sigek kepastian yang pasti. Ataupun bak kata orang melayu, terang lagi ber torch light. Kebanyakan nya bos ompuan macam &$^#*& jak..Dahla ego, bodo gik ya...sik mauk dengar pendapat orang lain. pasya salah mauk nyalah orang lain....minta cuti sik dapat...so apa gik orang bawahan...terpaksa carik jalan lain la mun mauk cuti..kan dah molah keja salah gik orang bawahan...bos tanggung owh dosa ya...

So, kepada sesiapa jak yang bergelar bos yang membaca benda di kerepak aku tok, ambik pengajaran hal tok. Mun staf kitak orang yang bermasalah or mauk minta cuti especially, jangan terus nak tembak mati orang ya...Bertanya dolok apa masalah or perihal mauk cuti ya...orang mauk amik cuti mesti ada sebab, bukannya setegal pusak nya mauk beranak di rumah. And, mun orang cuti, jangan di kaco...dah orang ya bercuti..Mun kitak urang cuti, ada kmk orang nelefon?Yah, ya orang putih madah, PRIVACY!!!!!

Tapi so far bos ku sik kedak ya lah..Cuma bos temporary aku jak macam ya..Nasib bait sik lamak gik ku mauk out. Sik perlu mauk mikir apa alasan mauk bercuti...bagus benar dah minta cuti, bukan sick leave. Tapi apa boleh buat, sikapnya yang sambil lewa menyebabkan aku minta sick leave, walhal sik sakit pun. So, dosa aku menipu ya nya tanggung juak, bak kata ustaz ku masa kecik dolok..heheheh..Nasib la...sapa suruh gila pangkat gilak mauk jadi ketua, nak?

*p/s - nasib staf ku dolok sik penah ada problem dengan aku, sebab aku pun sikda problem dengan sidak. Be rational la...

"To be respect by others, ones must learn to respect others first"

Boo Huhu....

After 2 days and nights thinking about it, finally i have made my mind. The decision was short and quick, so it wont hurting the other party.

It never cross my mind that i have to go through the process all over again as i can still feel the pinch of the last turmoil. It still hurt me, deep inside my heart. And i know, the repeatation of this process again will cost me the same.

Nicknames (Part 2)

Tokla rupa nya eh buah Apple ya..ada 2 kaler

Eceli, aku saja jak molah blog pasal Part 2 tok.Mun sapa2 yang ada maca Part 1 aku riya, ya hal aku merik nicknames dengan urang lain...Tapi aku tok pun makey nickname juak bah...Leylapple...

Kengkadang...mun sik kengkadang, selalunya la...

Urang akan bertanya dengan aku empun. Kenak Leylapple?Adakah ya gabungan Leyla + Apple = Leylapple?Mun menar, ada kah Leyla suka makan Apple lalu mendominasikan namanya yang dah diberik oleh bapaknya sejak lahir dolok dengan spesies buah Apple?

Alu la macam2 teori gik yang dipolah orang lain sehingga aku pun sik tauk pa kaitan nya dengan Leyla+Apple=Leylapple.

Ada juak orang especially penduduk Kuching madah, nama aku ya diambik sempena rumah urut Sweet Apple di Satok ya..Adakah patut~

Tapi, bagus bah Apple tok...Antara ayat2 yang berkenaan dengan Apple yang pernah di dengar oleh aku;

1. You're an APPLE of my eyes ~ Kau la centa buah ati jantung ku..eheh~
2. An APPLE a day keep the doctor away ~ Mun makan Apple banyak2, sik mauk doktor datang...Sikda bah...Perumpamaanya....Sihatla kita mun kita makan apple ya, sik lelah2 gi klinik sebab demam...
3. Big APPLE ~ New York city.Bila lah dapat ku ke sia...

Ada juak jenama Apple yang vouge2.Cth;

• Computer jenama Apple - mahal woh mun compare dengan jenama Dell or Acer

Logo Apple computer



• Big Apple Donuts& Coffee - nyaman kali?sik juak penah encerik koh~tapi byk branches di dunia tok...

So, untuk explainationnya,biarlah aku berbicara disini.....(chewah..)

Dolok, time aku mauk polah emel untuk yahoo, sebab mauk polah YM juak time ya, aku engkah nama aku pun.nya madah di sia,


"nick not available.please choose other"

Sikla ku tauk byk juak orang nama Leyla.Engkah ku nama benar beserta dgn nama bapak,masih juak comment yang sama dari Yahoo Admin..huhuhu..

Then, tetiba aku teringat, apa kata gabung namaku dengan benda lain.Ney tauk dapat...Nah, sekali ku coba (macam lagu Faizal indah gik bunyinya..ahak~), terus dapat...

Alu la Leylapple ya jadi nama aku di internet kenektok...

Ya la kisahnya..bukan aku suka makan Apple pun..Aku cuma suka bau minyak wangi Apple by DKNY jak..Mun mok berik hadiah, bagus berik hadiah minyak wangi ya dengan aku..huahuahua:)

Mun ku makei eu d parfume tok, akan jadi kacak ka aku?hehe...

Gempa bumi (petikan daripada email yang diterima baru2 ini)

Salam..sekadar perkongsian...fikir fikirkan..

Gempa bumi dengan magnitud 7.6 yang melanda Sumatera Barat sekitar 5.16 (17:16) petang waktu Indonesia Barat (6.15 petang waktu Malaysia) mengakibatkan beberapa bangunan utama di Padang mengalami kerosakan teruk seperti Rumah Sakit Umum Pusat M Jamil Padang, Rumah Sakit Selasih dan Hotel Rocky. Sumber:HarianMetro

Segala sesuatu kejadian di muka bumi merupakan ketetapan Allah Swt. Demikian pula dengan musibah bernama gempa bumi. Hanya berselang sehari setelah kejadian, beredar khabar—di antaranya lewat sms—yang mengkaitkan waktu terjadinya musibah tiba gempa itu dengan surat dan ayat yang ada di dalam kitab suci Al-Qur’an.

“Gempa di Padang jam 17.16, gempa susulan 17.58, esoknya gempa di Jambi jam 8.52. Cuba lihat Al-Qur’an!” demikian bunyi sms yang beredar. Siapa pun yang membuka Al-Qur’an dengan tuntunan sms tersebut akan merasa kecil di hadapan Allah Swt. Demikian ayat-ayat Allah Swt tersebut:

17.16 (QS. Al Israa’ ayat 16): “Dan jika Kami hendak membinasakan suatu negeri, maka Kami perintahkan kepada orang-orang yang hidup mewah di negeri itu (supaya mentaati Allah) tetapi mereka melakukan kedurhakaan dalam negeri itu, maka sudah sepantasnya berlaku terhadapnya perkataan (ketentuan Kami), kemudian Kami hancurkan negeri itu sehancur-hancurnya.”

17.58 (QS. Al Israa’ ayat 58): “Tak ada suatu negeri pun (yang durhaka penduduknya), melainkan Kami membinasakannya sebelum hari kiamat atau Kami azab (penduduknya) dengan azab yang sangat keras. Yang demikian itu telah tertulis di dalam kitab (Lauh Mahfuz).”

8.52 (QS. Al Anfaal: 52): (Keadaan mereka) serupa dengan keadaan Fir’aun dan pengikut-pengikutnya serta orang-orang sebelumnya. Mereka mengingkari ayat-ayat Allah, maka Allah menyiksa mereka disebabkan disebabkan dosa-dosanya. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuat lagi Amat Keras siksaan-Nya.”

Tiga ayat Allah Swt di atas, yang ditunjukkan tepat dalam waktu kejadian tiga gempa kemarin di Sumatera, berbicara mengenai azab Allah berupa kehancuran dan kematian, dan kaitannya dengan hidup bermewah-mewah dan kederhakaan, dan juga dengan keadaan Fir’aun dan pengikut-pengikutnya. Ini begitu menarik sekali.

Gaya hidup bermewah-mewah seolah disimbolisasikan dengan acara pelantikan anggota DPR yang memang WAH. Kedurhakaan boleh jadi disimbolkan oleh tidak ditunaikannya amanah umat selama ini oleh para penguasa, namun juga tidak tertutup kemungkinan kedurhakaan kita sendiri yang masih banyak yang lalai dengan ayat-ayat Allah atau malah menjadikan agama Allah sekadar sebagai alat untuk meraih kehidupan duniawi dengan segala kemewahannya (yang sebenarnya menipu).

Dan yang terakhir, terkait dengan “Fir’aun dan para pengikutnya”, percaya atau tidak, para pemimpin dunia sekarang ini yang bergabung dalam kelompok Globalis (mencita-citakan The New World Order) seperti Dinasti Bush, Dinasti Rotschild, Dinasti Rockefeller, Dinasti Windsor, dan para tokoh Luciferian lainnya yang bergabung dalam Bilderberg Group, Bohemian Groove, Freemasonry, Trilateral Commission (ada lima tokoh Indonesia sebagai anggotanya), sesungguhnya masih memiliki ikatan darah dengan Firaun Mesir (!).

David Icke yang dengan tekun selama bertahun-tahun meneliti garis darah Firaun hingga sekarang, dalam bukunya “The Biggest Secret”, menemukan bukti jika darah Firaun memang mengaliri tokoh-tokoh Luciferian sekarang ini seperti yang telah disebutkan di atas. Bagi yang ingin menelusuri keturunan darah Fir’aun tersebut hingga ke Dinasti Bush, silakan cari di www.davidicke.com (Piso-Bush Genealogy), dan ada pula di New England Historical Genealogy Society.

Nah, bukan rahsia lagi jika sekarang Indonesia berada di bawah cengkaman kaum NeoLib. Kelompok ini satu kubu dengan IMF, World Bank, Trilateral Commission, Round Table, dan kelompok-kelompok elit dunia lainnya yang bekerja menciptakan The New World Order. Padahal jelas-jelas, kubu The New World Order memiliki garis keturunan dengan Firaun.

Kelompok Globalis-Luciferian inilah yang mungkin dimaksudkan Allah Swt dalam QS. Al Anfaal ayat 52 di atas. Dan bagi mendukung pasangan ini, mungkin boleh dipanggil sebagai “…pengikut-pengikutnya.”

Dengan adanya berbagai “kebetulan” yang Allah Swt sampaikan dalam musibah gempa kemarin ini, Allah Swt jelas hendak mengingatkan kita semua. Apakah semua “kebetulan” itu sekadar sebuah “kebetulan” semata tanpa pesan yang berarti? Apakah pesan Allah Swt itu akan mengubah kita semua agar lebih taat pada perintah-Nya dan menjauhi larangan-Nya? Atau malah kita semua sama sekali tidak peduli, bahkan menertawakan semua pesan ini sebagaimana dahulu kaum kafir Quraiys menertawakan dakwah Rasulullah Saw? Semua terpulang kepada diri kita masing-masing. Wallahu’alam bisowab. (Ridyasmara)

Nicknames

Lamak ku sik nyengok blog ku pun sebelum ngan selepas raya tok eh..gago bah...mala jak berkepong sia sidak....kejeron keja, padah lakiku...eleh, nganok orang jak kitak ya....

ok...marek aku ada la tertangga sombody masa keja...urang tok, kenalan lamak juak la..sik la berapa lamak tp lebih juak la sepuluh tahun....tapi dalam lebih sepuluh tahun ya ada beberapa kali jak aku tertangga nembiak tok (maka dah bapak orang dah..agik juak ditunggah nembiak)

ko tauk apa ku nunggah nembiak tok...Palak antu...sebab, nya nang antu..semua la..dari pasal ompuan sampai la duit..ku sik tauk pa gik ada dalam palak nembiak ya..(ya lah aku agik nunggah nya nembiak, olah kedak miak kecik jak rupa tapi dah tua bangka.sik sedar kedirik eh!Buruk nak juak perangey).

Masa ku blajar, ada juak cikgu-cikgi yang diberik nama nickname oleh kamek urang..masa ya aku sekolah di Malaya nun (semenanjung la ya.nang bunyi kita madah mcm ya).apa gik sekolah asrama penuh...bergossip ya sudah pasti merupakan salah satu sumber hiburan di samping untuk cerita sensasi berita terkini.ahak.ahak~Mun nunggah nama betul, nakkah ditauk urang, especially urang empun badan...dahla sekolah asrama penuh oi..All walls have ears!!!!nang sikda tutup2 agik...Kelak ada kenak tunggah sebab nganok cikgu...nang ada seditious indah..heheh

Sikla jaik gilak nickname ya..ada sorang cikgu ompuan ya, ngajar math, diberi nama doraemon sebab bulat (berisi bulat badannya).Ada misai, sebab gaok gilak.Hitler pun ada sebab somet nya pen dek, kedak hitler and nya kejammm!!!!!!!!namala PK1..tapi kekejamannya merik hukuman dengan kamek urang dolok nang teruk...Nang sik merik2 agik belas kesian...Ala2 tentera...Ya namanya Hitler ya..

Time aku di U dolok pun ada..cuma aku dengan kawan aku sorang ya jak yang tauk, sebab kmk orang merik nama...Mentibang, sebab nya tok dahla bodo, perasan mauk ngajar orang.nak di ajar ya semua salah!Blue hippo, tok nickname kat sorang ompuan ya lah..sebab....ada la sikit2 sebab kat nickname nya :P.

Ada gik sikok tok...GK...Tapi definisi Gk ya chukup dasyat...Malas ku nak madah di sitok..tapi in the other word pun macam Gila Kuasa juak la..Goal Keeper pun boleh, tapi jadi goalkeeper nahan bola makei something yang ku sik dapat nak madah di sitok...censorship oleh urang lain kelak..

Hehehehehehhehehehehhe

p/s..kali aku pun ada nick name diberi urang lain juak kali..cuma aku jak sik tauk..hahah..whatever....Sama2 bah..ku nganok kau, kau nganok ku balit.Pot calling kettle black!

Bahana Raya 2009

Sakit tekakkk!!!!huhu~

Dah masuk 9 hari raya dah mun di kira ari tok.....and dah masuk 3 hari dah tekakku bengkak....kerana bahana air gas raya orang sarawak...huhuhuhu....

Arghhhhh!!!Panas~

Dahla 3-4 hari tok nang panas mati leput!!!rumah lom beli aircond gik, nang terasa juak la bahana nya....rasa macam dalam sauna sehingga tengahari marek terpaksa ku makan tengahari di Emart mauk amik sejuk aircond...yah, sanggup you, meli aircond sik sanggup...ya ku madah....

Raya Kahwin..Kahwin Raya..

Akad nikah RoseAdam...

Aku pun sik tauk la gney mauk merik title tok mula-mula...samada kahwin raya or raya kahwin..sebab berkahwin masa raya..hehehhe..

Aku hampir terlupa yang hari tok besfren aku nikah...aku kenal nembiak tok time aku matrik chermai di pending dolok...(dah pupus dah koleh chermai ya...brapa kali lari tukar tempat sebab sik mampu bayar sewa premis)..then..aku ikut nya pulang umah sebab aku bukan orang kuching...and..berkawan la kmk orang berkongsi suka duka sehingga la ke hari tok.....dan biarlah berkekalan sampai bila2...

So, aku pun malas nak klakar banyak2..lagipun tok hari gembira besfren aku...aku nak mencanangkan ke semua orang yang ari tok Rosni Binti Putra dah sah bergelar isteri kepada Muhd Adam Harith Bin Anthony!!!!Yeah....

Aku juak nyelut antara pengantin baru tok eh...

Siapla kau malam tok ros...muahahahahhahahaha....

Soalnya Hati?(part 2)

Berpuasa di bulan ramadhan kali ini betul- betul menguji kesabaran ku....Jungling 3 careers at a time menyebabkan aku terpaksa buat timing supaya aku dapat menyeimbangkan ketiga-tiga kerja supaya tak kelam kabut..Tapi sejak akhir-akhir ini kesesakan lalulintas di Kuching adalah tahap cipan!!!!!!!(kesian cipan, pinjam sekejap nama sebab malas nak mencarut di bulan mulia nie.)

Aku paling sik suka jika mengalami kesesakan di bulatan. Kadang - kadang jem di roundabout itu disebabkan pemandu yang tak berwibawa, memasuki bulatan daripada line paling kiri ke paling kanan (paling dalam bulatan.Masya Allah, masa belajar memandu dolok sik blajar rule ka?Sah lesen terbang!Beli kapal terbang jak.Sik susah masuk bulatan dan tak menyusahkan orang lain! Dahla di Kuching tok banyak bulatan.Huh!!!

Satu lagi yang paling aku sik suka. Bergerak perlahan bila lampu hijau. Oi, mun dah ijo gadong lampu ya, maksudnya jalan la! Ini tak, dah nak merah masih lagi nak jalan. Bila dah tersekat kat tengah2 jalan tu, kan dah mem 'blok' laluan kereta yang lain bila turn orang lain!

Lain-lain aku malas nak komplen. Takut ter 'emo.'..tebik posa kelak.Ingat-ingatla pemandu lain di jeraya ya...orang bayar roadtax juak oi...

Suatu hari di bulan Ramadhan

5.45am
Bangun pagi. Bersiap-siap untuk ke sekolah .Rasa lemah nyawa indah ari tok...Rasa sik cukup rehat jak ujung minggu!Biasa la, monday blues...

6.30am
Dah dalam keta kelisa ku yang dah bersamaku sejak 3 tahun yang lepas. Tapi sampai jak ke Bulatan Emart, (sukati jak aku berik nama Bulatan Emart, sapa suruh sik engkah nama bulatan ya!), jem teruk indah..Aduuu, lambat la aku sampai tok!

6.15am
Yay!sampai juak ke sekolah..sikda kelas pagi...kak rehat baruk ada..

1.00pm
Gi pos opis, then gi TMline di Saujana untuk bayar bil telefon dan internet..Ada kelak sik ber blog agik ku sebab line kena cut off sik bayar bil!

1.30pm
Atas jambatan satok!jem agik!ada keta proton persona rosak atas jambatan tok.Dahla pemikiran tuannya sama level dengan kualiti keta nya juak, sik pandai mauk tolak ke dibah jambatan ya..Jem sampai flyover satok nun!nang molah keja juak..

2.15pm
Dah sampai sekolah..Prepared mauk ajar kelas last ari tok.Finally*sigh*

3.30pm
Sampai ke umah...ZzZz lok..kepak!

5.00pm
Bangun tdo..Baruk nyaman rasa nyawa...ada la sikit energy mauk teruskan hari dengan lebih bermakna walaupun hari nak berganti malam dah..hehehhe.Bersiap-siap mauk g Emart untuk beli barang makan key sunkei..sungkei sorang bah...malas mauk masak ari tok.sikda mood!

Pemandangan di Bazaar Ramadhan Emart..

6.00pm

Dah beli barang makan dah...beli:-

1. Air cendol (RM3 sebungkus)-mati leput mahal bulan posa tok eh....makin menjadi-jadi mahal..orang beramal bersedekah bulan posa, tok carik untuk lebih2..alu mengerepak sendirian aku dalam hati lepas beli cendol tok..
2. Air kelapa (RM2-mun beli 3 Rm5)-aku beli sebungkus jak..byk gilak dah air, kelak kembung perut gik
3. Beriani Ayam madu (RM5.50)-fuh banyak juak diberik nya..kompom setengah dalam tong uras kak tok!.
4. Cucur Vadei (4 igek RM1)-alu paling suka cucur tok...tok ku beli dr tambi..mun melayu mahal n keras!patah gigi pun boleh kali...

Ha...tok la hidangan bagi orang yang buka posa 'membujang' macam aku tok..hahahahahahhah

6.30pm

Sik lamak gik berbuka posa...ada dalam 14 minit gik...berkebun dolok la...

Bunga ros aku berbunga agik..dan hati aku pun turun 'berbunga' bersama-sama..hehehe

Masa kinektok

Kenyang dan puas ati..menar juak nasi ya setengah dalam tong uras..byk gilak..cucur 2 igek sedekah dgn miak tuisyen..air pun sama..minum sama2 la kmk org tadik..yala, lain kali iboh loba gilak..nasib da miak tuisyen..mun sik kan membazir namanya...

Soalnya Hati?

Teringat aku dengan lagu dendangan Erra Fazira suatu ketika dulu berkenaan dengan tajuk di atas...Iya, memang soal hati merupakan suatu perkara yang rumit, kadang kala sukar dimengertikan oleh tuan punya hati itu sendiri.

Perasaan di dalam hati itu, tak kira la perasaan marah ker, malas ker, sayang ker...semua tu adalah datang dari hati..Mengapa marah?kerana hati benci atau tidak suka.Kenapa malas?kerana tidak ada hati untuk melakukan sesuatu perkara tersebut.Sayang?

Soal nya Siapa?

Sesiapa sahaja boleh jatuh cinta.Tak kirala budak kecik ker, remaja atau dewasa...Malah ada yang boleh jatuh cinta dua tiga kali pada masa yang sama?ha, macam mana tu? nie kategori species pencinta beribu nie..(teringat pulak lagu Pencinta Wanita, "aku memang pencinta wanita tapi bukanla buaya..eleh~)

Malahan, ada yang bercinta bagai nak rak tapi berkahwin pulak dengan orang yang baru dikenali 2 3 bulan sebelum tu, padahal dah bersama pasangan lebih sedekad!Jadi mengapa ini berlaku?

Berubah hati..

Terus terang aku nyatakan disini, aku juga tidak mampu menjawab soalan cepu mas ini.Dunia berubah mengikut peredaran zaman dan masa, jadi aku juga beranggapan bahawa cinta itu boleh berubah-ubah mengikut masa dan keadaan.

Contohnya, dulu kita suka sangat jika dia membuat lawak untuk kita tapi sekarang?Jadi muak pulak dengan lawak bangang yang dah basi. Dia yang dulunya seorang yang menghiburkan hati dah jadi joker yang menyakitkan hati..Ataupun, dulu dia berbadan persis badan Hugh Jackman, pelakon Wolverine dalam cerita X-Men, tapi sekarang dah jadi Larry Joe Campbell dalam Sitcom According to Jim.

Jadi, persoalan nya masih jadi menjadi rahsia...biarla hati berbicara sendiri...

p/s aku nak cakap lebih2, aku tak tau nak baca hati orang..aku keje cikgu dengan jurutera jer..bukan psikik yang ada bola kristal!

Resepi Kek Batik

Time posa mcm tok, lebih2 lagik kenak dgn diri aku yang sentiasa online 16 jam, sudah semestinya aku akan meng' gago' kan diri aku mencarik resepi2 di tenet tok...byk bah resepi, antara mauk sik mauk jak..bak kata pepatah'nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih'.

Aku tok nak madah mauk polah kuih raya, dah masuk 3 tahun dah aku meng'order' kek dari orang lain....duit pun duit la...janji rasanya nyaman!daripada aku lelah2 molah kuih, pasya angus!rugi duit, rugi masa, rugi gula (dah naik rega), rugi mentega cap tong,rugi loyang (pa tek dah itam kenak kek angus, susah mauk cuci).

So, untuk berjinak2 di dunia dapur tok, biar aku mula dgn resepi yang mudah-mudah jak dolok...Kek Batik!!!aku suka kek tok, tp rami org berjual kuih tok kedekut coklat!huh!

KEK BATIK (ihsan dari http://www.ehoza.com)

Bahan-bahan

1/2 butter

1 paket kecil Milo ( Boleh beli di kedai paket kecil ni)

1/2 tin susu pekat

1 paket biskut Marie @ ikut suka

Cara-cara

Cairkan butter, masukkan milo dan susu

Kacau sampai sebati dan likat

Akhir sekali masukkan biskut Marie (patah-patahkan..senang nak kacau)

Kemudian angkat dan letak dalam bekas.

Tekan dan padatkan.

Masukkan dalam peti sejuk.

Setelah sejuk, sedia untuk dimakan.

Macam nyaman jak tok.....kak tok juak ku nyoba...

Up,up and there we goes again....

Well, working on tuesday was a sign that the 1 week school holiday just ended, and im back to my works, up an running like a hamster in a cage wheel. My mind was in haze, and my body was heavy, still having the tiredness from 1 week PLKN agenda.

Gosh, damned tired!Huargh...

Bercuti Sakan di Kem PLKN

Time aku kat Kem PLKN Junaco Park tu, aku rasa cukup beruntung sebab Kem tu macam dalam zoo...dahla aku ajar cuma program integrasi jer...sayangnya aku mengajar time puasa, jadi tak leh nak makan-makan, nak piknik-piknik kat sekeliling taman tue...

Dalam Kem tu aku rasa macam gi zoo plak...ada rusa..ada ikan naga...Ala, ikan naga nie kalo kita gi Giant kat semenanjung, mesti ada kat akuarium besar dia.(aku suka tengok kat Giant Senawang tu).Apa tah nama ikan tu...kalo tak silap, nama saintifik ikan tu adalah Arapaima.

Nampak tak ikan tu, besar kan?Dahla jinak...

Rusa pun ader gak...bukan yang berbaju kuning tu tau...

Semangat 1Malaysia dari Kem PLKN Junaco Park Siri 6 Kumpulan 3 2009

Senyuman mesra dari kami penceramah jemputan PLKN...iklan gigi sikit...

Aku jadi penceramah kat Kem tu cuma 5 hari ...ajar 3 modul jer, Kebudayaan, Keagamaan dan Peranan lelaki & perempuan...

Lepas abis ajar modul tu, sempat gak aku interbiu diorang...ada yang tak penah sekolah, ada yang dah awal2 lagi bergelar suami dan isteri orang..(dasyat gak tu.tp okla daripada mengandung luar nikah!)Then aku tanya la, lepas PLKN ni apa diorang nak buat.Antara jawapan yang aku dapat;

• Life macam biasa, duduk kat umah..(erk, takkan takder muhasabah diri?)
• Keje cam biasa, entah2 dah kene buang keje sebab dah 3 bulan tak keje..(isk2 kesian plak aku dengar)

Aku tanya lagi,

"Awak kan dah blajar banyak time masuk PLKN nie, takder perubahan diri ker?Sambung study ker, cari kerja yang bagus lagi ker?Yang takder keje tu cari keje ker or buat bisnes sendiri ker?"

Lagi, antara jawapan yang aku terima;

• Malas
• dah ada keje yang sesuai dengan jiwa raga, malas nak carik tokey lain.

Tapi ada satu jawapan yang cukup membuat aku terkedu mendengarnya..

"Ala cikgu, buat apa nak susah2. Lepas nie carik jer orang kaya, then kawin dengan dia. So secara automatik nya kita pun jadi kaya!Tak payah susah2 nak carik kejer sebab nak carik duit"

Aisey, macam tu plak jawapan dia..Sungguh canggih sekali..

So, dalam hal nie, aku rasa objektif Program PLKN nie susah la nak tercapai. Macam mana nak tercapai kalau manusia yang keluar dari Kem tu (kira graduate ler)sama dengan manusia yang mula-mula masuk dalam Kem tue?

Tapi yang nie aku cakap pasal siri tercicir nie aje la...Walau bagaimana pun, ada jugak sesetengah pelatih yang aku tanya memang berubah menjadi yang lebih baik...Cuma kerana atas desakan family atau pengaruh kengkawan yang menyebabkan mereka tersasar semasa di peringkat sekolah menengah.

Apa-apa pun, aku doakan mereka akan jadi manusia yang lebih baik untuk generasi rakyat Malaysia yang akan datang...Walaupun hanya 5 ari jer dengan diorang tapi rasa macam lama sangat kenal dengan diorang..

PLKN oh PLKN...

I always sceptical about PLKN program. For me, it was a waste of Goverment Money, a money collected from tax payer and im one of the tax payer,so that money is my money!!!One series of PLKN intake could use more almost 1 billion ringgit?That is why i always scoofed the idea of our PM about PLKN program.

Then, a month ago, i have been invited to be a fasilitator for PLKN program in Sarawak to a give talk about integration in Malaysia ( I believe this is something to do with our PM concept, 1Malaysia.I dont know,cuz this is my 1st timer). At first, i was designated to Kem Juara Serian, but last minute changed to Kem Junaco Sibu. Better still, as i am from Sibu and the talk slot allocated for me is scheduled on 24-28 August, i could be in Sibu during school holiday!

I was informed that the batch of PLKN trainees that i have to face is the worst batch of all, which is ranged from low academician and school dropout. Some of them are married though!

I came to the National Service camp around 4pm and the camp site was indeed big!( I found out that Kem Junaco is the biggest National Camp which covers 123 acr of land). Ahead of me was a black Myvi, supposedly carried some of the fasilitators, i presume..

Later i learnt that it was 8 of us, 4 men and 4 women.

Barisan penceramah jemputan PLKN


Well....so far so good...and the trainees was not bad at all...(So far, *sigh*)

Happy faces of the NS Trainees

And i like this chinese girl from my class, eventhough her BM was at the acceptable level, she was really into this program and put all effort to be part of the talk show.

Well, will be continue...

Long Way From Home

Elo everybody!!!!!!

Musim cuti sekolah melanda semula......!!!Kali ini lebih bermakna sebab...;

• bulan ramadhan, dapat minta maaf sesama keluarga time pulang cuti.
• aku keje part time jaga bebudak plkn, sebab tu balik kampung..

At least ada gak keje dan manfaat yang aku dapat sempena cuti balik kampung nie...

Aku bertolak pukul 3.30ptg dari Kuching menuju ke Sibu, selalu nya perjalanan sejauh 465km nie aku amik masa dalam 5 jam driving on the road...Nonstop, kalo stop makin lambat la..lagipun nak bukak posa dgn mak...lama dah tak tengok mak...Rindu gak dengan dia...Aku gi sorang jer kali nie, hubby kene jaga sekolah, bebudak nak UPSR tak lama lagi.

Sepanjang perjalanan tu, mula-mula aku bukak la radio untuk peneman setia. Tapi bila sampai serian, siaran favourite aku, hitzdotfm dah tak kedengaran plak...yang tinggal bunyi lebah..sayu-sayu jer bunyi org nyanyi, jadi aku off jer radio...aku plak yang menyanyi plak menghiburkan diri sendiri..Kalo aku senyap, memang sunyi la...Only left the sound of my heart banging on my head..hahaha

Pemandangan sebelum simpang Sri Aman. Gambar yang dibawah adalah pemandangan dari atas Bukit Bangunan

Kelajuan perjalanan aku pun tak la laju sangat, dalam lebih kurang 1.8km perminute jer...Hah, kira lah sendiri..Sampai sempat aku amik gambar pemandangan sekeliling...ada satu kali tu, sempat gak berlumba dengan satu kereta proton saga putih no plate QKS 4xxx.Mula-mula dia potong aku, lepas tu masa sampai kat Bukit Bangunan, aku potong dia balik, pastu dia nak potong aku tak dapat-dapat sampailah kat simpang Sri Aman. Aku belok ke Sibu, dia lurus ke Sri Aman...

Open burning!!!!!!Sebab orang nak tanam padi baru

Sepanjang dari Simpang Sri Aman tu menuju ke Sarikei, banyak dah rumah panjang moden yang aku tengok tepi jalan. Tapi tak sempat nak amik gambar...kang aku plak yang terbabas masuk dalam longkang..Aku pun malas nak berhenti...Lain kali jer la aku amik gambar tu.

And...

Aku sampai ke Sibu pukul 7.45pm...tak sempat nak berbuka puasa dengan mak..Tapi aku ajak mak aku makan kat Taman Harmoni, sebab aku suka sangat makan mee Brunei kat gerai Selera Malam. Sedap!!Mee Brunei nie sebenarnya sup dia yang best, sebab guna sup daging.

Inilah rupanya Mee Brunei!

Ok, need to go, see ya next time with different stories!!

Girls Rule the world!!!

Symbolised by a sign Venus for girls and Mars for boys, I'm always proud to be a girl..Do you know that girls got rules?Girl rules, in the other hand also mean by girl power, at which by definition ,

"a girl power means a self-reliant attitude among girls and young women manifested in ambition, assertiveness, and individualism..."

i know some of the boys are very envious of the title but hey, look here...It is indeed proven that girls a better than boys.I'm a teacher, and as a teacher i observed a fact that my girls are more focus-minded and well managed in class while i'm teaching them....Plus, by statistical method analysis done by me based on their recent test, most girls can do better than boys eventhough the top scorer are boys....Sadly..huhu...(girls, better do it well next time!)

Tangan Yang Menghayun Buaian Bisa Menggoncang Dunia

However, this is only a minor examples on how girls nowaday rule the world of knowledges. Remember Amalina?The person who score 17A's in SPM 2005? Hailed from Kelantan, this girl proved Malaysia that she can scored most A's eventhough some of the subjects were not offered by her school.Well, not bad for a girl who did not rely on extra hours of private tuition as so many Malaysian children do.

Ok, that 1 score for girls in academic field. Next, we move to sport. Nicol David, hailed from Penang, is the first squash player to have won the World Junior title twice (1999 and 2001) under the tutelage of Richard Glanfield . She remained the only female squash player to have achieved this, until Raneem El Weleily emulated David's feat by winning her second World Junior Championship in 2007.Who say girls can't beat the boys in game?In fact, we are better than boys!!(Hehe, sowi boys~)

I believe most of you loves movie, isn't it?Familiar the name of Dato' Michelle Yeoh?Born in Ipoh and even was chosen by People magazine as one of the 50 Most Beautiful People in the World in 1997. I remember that the first time i saw her acting was in the Chinese Movie more than 10 years ago but I can't remember the title of the film. She is best known in the Western world for her roles in the 1997 in a very well known film James Bond-Tomorrow Never Dies, playing Wai Lin, and the multiple Academy-winning Chinese action film Crounching Tiger, Hidden Dragon , for which she was nominated the BAFTA for "Best Actress".

By the above facts, no wonders why some of the Mars wants to become one of the Venus...hehehe...But sometimes i do wonder why some Venus didnt see the beauty of being a Venus and highly salute the Mars to the extend they wants and some even changed to Mars!

Sajer jer

Apa yang buat aku meluat dan benci di pagi hari minggu?

• Aku terbangun pukul 7am sebab jiran aku bising-bising marah anak dia.
• Aku terbangun lagi sebab tukang potong rumput membabi buta tekan hon depan umah sebab nak potong rumput, walhal aku tak panggil dia dan rumput aku tak panjang.
• Kene basuh 'ekstra kain' sebab-sebab yang aku tak leh nak sebutkan kat sini.Menyakitkan hati jer.
• Kene tinggal sowang diri lagi sebab hubby kene balik sekolah..huhuuhhuu

Apa yang aku paling suka pada hari minggu?

• Tak keja!!!
• Boley terlebih tidooooo...(tapi susah nak dapat atas sebab- sebab yang disebutkan diatas)
• Hubby gi sediakan sarapan sebab dia nak berkemas-kemas awal nak balik sekolah..
• Ada cerita korea best kat channel 303, pastu sambung lagi dengan crita CSI, pastu sambung lagi dengan crita kul 3 TV2, pastu sambung lagi...blablabla...pendek crita ari nie aktiviti depan tv jer.

Exam Week

Actually i'm glad that this week is the exam week for the school. i have been jungling my career by switching tasks with another person so this week is so hectic for me. All the reports must be done and sent to the HQ before 15 which is on tomorrow. And it was only yesterday that i just learnt about my task.

Students were studying for Math

math exam

i havent recovered from yesterday's tireness and i wake up with a lazy feeling lingering all over me...But today is the Final Day for the exam week and i my paper is scheduled on today...(i'm a bit worried about this)


Most of the Questions arises have been discussed with my fellow students. However, to my surprise, they still cant do it...huh!

Satisfaction smiles after the exam

Sleepy head..huargh...

I'm damn tired and sleepy this week.Plus my school is having an exam week, which requires me only to sit in the classroom and watch over the students so they wont be cheating or copying each other during the examination. ....i can tell you, the whole process is so bored and tired.

Being 3 in 1, my energy is being used to the maximum level....and it drains out the chi from my body, which leaves me totally lifeless by 10pm...ZzZzZz

Corporate woman VS Keparat Woman

What do you think of my title?

Sound familiar? Never thought about it? and how come?

I have known this lady for more than 3 years...When i first knew her, she was a cute, sweet girl with a shoulder length hair and a warm smile on her face. Always on casual shirt and trousers, she was an active person and we always in work together and it was very fun, considering that both of us was new to that company.

Then, after 2 years, i met this lady again. she was no longer the cute, sweet girl that i met 2 years ago. she totally transformed to a sexy, hot looking lady with a long, curly bleach-blonded hair. Not only she had changed her outer appearance, so does the inner personality.

Being a sexy, hot looking but brainless person is the perfect definition for that woman.My friends even labelled her as Paris Hilton, only she was far poorer and stupider compared to Paris.

Hailed from a remote area not far from here, i believe that she was quite determined to upgrade herself and to improve the living style of her family. When all the senior officer left the company, she was promoted (but i rather prefer the word offered)to be the acting manager for our division, and she took it without hesitation eventhough by qualification and experiences, she was far from the job qualification.But for me, it can be minimised if she was willing to upgrade herself along with the promotion!And the General Manager always sided her eventhough her answer was not only not answering the question asked, but also illogical to be done!

Similar looking picture of the GM..hehheheh

Both of us have the same knowledge background in education and even graduated form the same university. In fact, she was 5 years senior than me. Supposedly, by both life and working experiences, she should be doing much better than me, isnt it? But it seems that we worked in the other way around.

She started to boss around (she believes being a boss, she can order the team to work as the way she wants it to be. I believe that she should managed the team and give instructions based on the needs of the company). i ever covered her as she need to go to somewhere and instructed me to tell the other boss that she have family matter that required her to go back to her hometown. The truth was, she wanted to go to Miri with 'someone'!.

Our spark of argument begun when she started to ask me to do her work by the name of the General Manager. She will simply ordered me to go to meeting room and i will found myself in the middle of a meeting conference and i have to answer to the questions arised!

The relationship became critical when i have to handle a difficult situation back home. I was not being granted a leave and even not being granted a compassionate leaves for both my wedding day and the demised of my Allahyarham father...i was damned frustated, and full with anger on her attitude....of being not considerable on the situation that happen on me.

and now, i always picturise her as a demonic whore looking lady who willing to do anything to secure her position. but deep in my heart, i wish the nice, cute looking lady that i known for the past 3 years will returned back and i wished her the very best of all luck!!!

Illustration only...not the real picture of her..but nice looking girl thou....

Workaholic?Desperate? For Fun?

i think it was 2 or 3 years ago that i came across an article in a magazine about a lady worked as an accountant during daytime and became a dancer on night time. At first, my mind went like,"Wow, she must be desperate for money". Then the sceptical thought became admiration,"She was so good, having two job at one time"...an the thought keep on and on until i almost salute her as a superwoman!


Never that i imagine that it will be happen on me too.When i resigned from my recent job somewhere in Feb or March due to job satisfaction,i was desperate for a job. Being a wife of somebody in the age of 27 and having a car and a house to pay, yes, I'm desperate to look for a job.


I been interviewed for a one or two jobs; one with a firm in Kl and one with the local company here .i was quite confident that i will get the job with the local company even though the pay is not as high as my recent job.but it turned out that I'm only shortlisted for the job and i didn't get it. however, the interviewer recommended me to his friend's company instead which i got to know several months later.


As the process of getting job seems to be lenghty, i went for an open interview for another job and successfully got myself into one of the positions. And....this is the time when headache started to kick in ..


We have not being paid for more than 2 months after the first day on working. i was quite pissed off with the relevent person who was supposed to manage our salary and wellfare, and i didnt make a flinch when somebody call and offered me another job.i need the money to hush away the worrying feeling of not paying my car, my utility bills and my house.i need a money to stay focus on what i am doing now.

i was ready to leave my current job and face the consequences of not getting paid cuz i dont want to guess when and again when the exact time the administration wants to pay our salary for the past two months.and even i already signed the offer letter from the company saying that i will be working in due time. however, i have another second thought...

"it was funny why i never think about that before..
it was a shame why the second thought is being camouflaged by my past anger toward irresponsible person..
it was never cross my mind what my fast-without-thinking decision will affect the persons surroundings..."

(and blame it again to the irresponsible person who suppose to work and manage my welfare and pay me in due time!!!)

And now, im caught in the middle of the situation which i have to split myself into two. i have to work in the current situation now and i have to work in the company to mark my word.and i already received the advance payment to work for that company. and being an honest and responsible person, i dont want to break my promises or to breach any contract of my working attitude!

so...

i have to be that superwoman...having another job in the morning time, and working as another in the afternoon by time based working hour..life was indeed an eccentric!!

Pengalaman Ujian PTD pertama aku

Cam besa, aku bangun pagi lebih kurang kul 7am..Bukan apa, dah terbiasa bangun pagi2, kul 7am tu dah kira lambat jugakla bagi aku..maklum la, hari Sabtu, bukan waktu bekerja..tp hari ini aku kena duduk PTD exam..Itu yang membezakan hari Sabtu nie dgn hari Sabtu yang lepas-lepas.

Sebab pusat peperiksaan tu taklah jauh dr rumah aku, kira2 dalam 5 minit kut kalo naik keta..jalan kaki ada gak dlm 10 min..so aku g tepat kul 8.30 am..yela, exam kul 9am.walaupun dalam surat kata kene ada 30 min sebelum waktu mula peperiksaan, tp berdasarkan pengalaman aku amik Mtest (pun 1st time gak thn nie..keputusan nya adalah rayuan!), masuk dewan or kelas peperiksaan pun 15min sebelum ujian!

Pusat peperiksaan aku tu bersebelahan dgn sekolah rendah..nama pun hampir serupa...aku plak, tersalah nak g yg sekolah rendah.patutla tgk takder org pun yang g situ..bebudak sekolah rendah jer yang banyak.nasib aku guna logik...bertanya dgn salah seorg yg baru berhenti kat tempat parking...

Antara yang menyebabkan aku tersalah tempat (alasan jer la nie), adalah cara pemakaian calon2 exam ptd tersebut. ada yang pakai pakaian macam nak g shopping(ompuan ler), ada yang pakai jeans dgn baju tak berkolar dan paling mengharukan, berselipar di kaki! kalo tak salah aku, dalam surat panggilan exam kata pakaian formal...pakaian2 yang aku nyatakan tadi nie pakaian santai!

Nie Dewan Peperiksaan.Nampak tak ramai yang tak berpakaian formal?

Nie yang calon pakai jenas dgn slepar tadi!

Masa terluang antara exam tu (baru lepas 1 paper, tgh tunggu paper yang seterusnya), ada yang sempat bertelefon plak dalam dewan..bercakap2 dan tak kurang jugak ada yang menayangkan telefon dgn kawan sebelah.aku pun terasa nak kluarkan henpon tapi mungkin aku nie jenis yang ikut peraturan kot (ahak~),jadi aku pendamkan jer niat dalam ati..

Okla...aku rasa perkara2 yang dinyatakan oleh aku sebelum nie taklah penting sangat kut dalam ujian PTD kali ini..mungkin aspek pemakaian akan ditekankan semasa proses temuduga nanti..anyway,antara soalan-soalan yang sempat aku ingat;

• apakah itu phishing?aku jawab similar web to steal no acc and password, rupanya email sent to steal no acc and password.
• siapakah tongkat warrant?erk!nie patutnya aku blh jawap tapi aku jawap thman puteh!jawapan Usman Awang.Apakah yang terjadi pada memory aku?
• apakah maksud RAM
• fungsi Microsoft
• Alatan utama Mak yong-aku jawab gendang..aku ingat gendang,apa2 pun mesti adakan?tapi rupanya rebab!aku pun tak tau apa rebab tu, bentuknya, warnanya, bau nya.heh!
• Sukma 2010 akan diadakan di negeri mana? aku jawab melaka.nie jer yang betul.

Yang lain tu takyah la aku terangkan lagi...seksyen B aku tembak 3 soalan.malas nak kira2 lagipun abis masa dah...tapi berdasarkan apa yang aku ceritakan nie..korang pun blh buat kesimpulan kan nanti samada aku berjaya atau tidak...byk salah dari betul..tu baru pengetahuan am, lom lagi yang seksyen D dan E yang aku baru nak duduk petang nie..Adios!

Mini garden of my own...

i always want a garden for me to plant something on, and i would love to have a garden on my own. when i was in primary school, i was in the horticulture club...cuz i thought that we will learnt about planting or flowering. but it turned out that we have became the cleaner to sweep away the fallen leaves, and pulling the grasses from the flowering pot. what a dismay ...*Sigh!*

anyway, this doesn't mean that i my passion for gardening were killed by some stupid club supervisor. in fact, my interest becoming more and more deep inside me.but not deeper enough for me to become a botanist. i ended up taking Engineering in Uni anyway..

When i was in Yr 2 in Uni Level, i have to rent a house outside my campus. it was 2 storey corner house which is good enough for me to start a fresh chapter of my long lost hobby.so, i slowly plant a very easy plant which i pluck the branches from around the neighbourhood. the visit to Sunday Market become frequent and also with the pottery shop in Batu 4 1/2.

I left Kuching 2 years later, so i have to put a pause on my hobby.when i got a job in Kuching, and plus that i have bought a single story semi D house in Kuching area just recently, my hobby begun to florist.

Which an approximately of 300 sqm, i am very happy that i can start my very own garden. (i bought a secondhand house from my ex boss with a really good price. Thanks a lot to him:))The previous owner have planted a curry tree, pandan tree, a cempedak tree n a rambutan tree which i have to chopped down the rambutan tree to make way for the new roof.Yay!No more leaking problem.

Some of my arrangement of flower pot..Trying to arrange..hehe

I currently planted a widely range of flower which given by my neighbour and some of it i took around the Kuching town area. i saw something nice, then i will took it away to be planted in my house..and with permission..hehe

Trays full of small chillies and tomatoes plants.Most of them died due to dry season nowadays..huhu

Whenever im improving my garden, my two strips bodyguards will join the company

My cat promoting my garden by posing with some of my plants..hehehe..

Dont Speak!!

I was driving to work this morning when i heard a song, which have been a popular song being played by my favourite radio station. I still remember when i first heard the song, i was in Form2.

Actually it reminds me that this situation happens to most of us.. The message of the lyric is very simple. It is about a relationship that began to fail...and there's a no explaination or lame excuses why it is happening to both party. Other word means..

"if u want a break, just break up! and Shut uppp!I dont want to listen to you anymore, or your voice tingling in my head!"

(Hehe..i guess so)

Well, as the title goes and whatever the lyric meant, i attach the lyric for your own mind.Have a pleasure reading!


You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't speak,don't speak, don't speak, oh
I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good, I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Mad with Add Math!!!

I was so mad, furious, frustrated today, and the entire feeling blends so well till I almost down with a heart break. The feeling was so intense that I have to pour it out in an open space. I was so damned furious with my students, and it’s so because of Additional Mathematics!

picture taken before my outburst

Additional Mathematics or in a short form known as an Add Math always send shivers to most of the Malaysian students. By statistics based on my school, Add Math is ranked amongst the bottom list for the previous exam result, follows by Physic, Biology and Chemistry. Some of the students even have AddMathphobia, a nick named by one of my fellow teachers.

one of my student trying out the question given on the whiteboard

As an engineering student and an ex engineer, I have found that Math and Calculus is not that hard. It seems hard to solve the problem, but in fact, when one’s look closer and read the question thoroughly, actually it is a straight to the point, one by one solving steps.

Looking back to the AddMathphobia, one’s created fears due to the difficulties in Add Math problem solving.The real question here, are we really read the question given and make use of whatever hints@formula provided for the question? Then, how do we know which formula should be use?These questions only can be answered by doing tons and tons examples and Addmath exercises.

Well, no pain no gain…one’s must strive harder for success. We have to remember; to be on top of the ladder of success begins with a step at the bottom step of the ladder.

Sure Heboh eh...nang kamboh

Sure Heboh di Kuching gik eh...Nang kamboh...

Sebenarnya aku dr ari sabtu mauk gi, tapi ada masalah2 yg tertentu yg menyebabkan aku menunda aktiviti memerhati org di pesta sure heboh ke ari ahad. ya pun ku ngekot famili kwn dgn dua org anak pompuan nya yg baruk nak jadi remaja..hehehe

Sampai jak aku di umah kwn ku tek,alu terus anak nya polah pengumuman langsung dgn aku

"Auntie, kmk org kak tok g sure heboh eh..kmk mauk tangga konsert.dari marek dh kmk org rizab tempat mek org depan pentas"

Fuh, sik alang2 koh tempat duduk ya.Depan pentas terus. Kenak sik atas pentas alu tek?!Tapi sikla aku nak madah pia..nembiak bah...

Antara org yg dapat di snap oleh aku di dalam henpon

Sesampai nya aku di sia, blh tahan rami juak org...mcm2 gaya juak dapat ditangga..sik dapat ku mauk ekplain di sitok..kelak takut tersinggung mana2 org yang berkenaan.snap gambar pun sik dapat..malu aib org..hehehhe..mun nya rasa aib la..

Tapi kesimpulan aku dapat polah di sitok, nang happening org sarawak pun da keramaian sik kira la sure heboh ka...kapal berhias ka..nang kamboh..heheh..sama la kita tok..kamek org sarawak juak bah..

Bethroned in Kingdom of Boredom

When after 5pm are no longer exciting, when weekend is no longer be awaited, it tells something is wrong...somewhere...somehow..

Im in the kingdom of boredom!!!!

I have no appetite to crave on food, no interest to go out and shop, no intention to do beautification of my garden..

i rather be thrown rather than bethroned in this kingdom of boredom..

Exam PTD

I was bored to death waiting for my confinement due to H1N1 quarantine procedure to be over end of this week...(and i was sick n tired telling makcik sebelah umah yang aku sik kenak lah!adohh..)

And...

I saw letters in my post box..i picked it up and saw;

1. Telephone bill from TmNet. (wey, i picked the internet combo basis and not supposed to have a phone bill.what and why you are charging me for?internet services again?)
2. A sealed letter from SPA (dup..dap..dup..dap..what's inside?i'm curious;p)

At last, a letter instructed me to go for exam..But wait, for the post of Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik M41?Huh?Errr?

I'm not a type of people who always barged at the door without asking (tok perumpamaan x prepare terus g exam ler).So, as per date today, it has been two days and two nights im poking my nose to find out what it takes to be a PTD...(refers to my previous blog)

My findings?Wahhhhhhh!!!!!!!

i've been to the forums, blogs wrote by PTDs....and my conclusion, not only it is very hard to pass the table exam, PAC,DPA...but the candidates also have to serve and put the country first before themselves...(huhahuha...erk?!)

Okay, here's a tip or twos for those really want to become PTD and pass the exam;

• Read newspaper from page 1 to the end.
• Read Malaysia Kita book.
• Read all the Dasar-Dasar Kerajaan, the latest achievement received by Malaysia, who won recently,who got nominated and awarded something...e.g Hadiah Nobel ka..
• Flip back your math book.
• Read dictionary or journal about current issues in Malaysia-for essay preparation.
• Last but not least, find out more about this exam from internet.Don't depend on this as im also like you guy, sitting for the first time!

Well, good luck guys and happy reading!:)

p/s : Isham, ko nang terer la sebab 1st time exam, interbiu terus dapat..tapi ko nang terer lamak la..sik mampu ku mauk jadi macam kau..bila gik mauk cia aku tok?bday dh dekat dh..

What does it takes to be.....

A superstar?An engineer?A teacher?A prime minister?

Remember when we were in primary school, our teacher always asked us what we are going to be when we're grow up?I remember telling my teacher that i want to be a scientist...eventhough i dont know and i even dont have any single ideas what scientist do...But i know it is a cool job...inventing and making cool things such as smoke screen (i always want to do this because my father was a smoker and i cant stand his smoke!).

But now, im far away of being a scientist. The closest job that i ever have to fit the scientist job was to become an engineer. But, nah...not so much of inventing things...what was i supposed to do was checking the drawing, checking the tender...site checking and supervision and a bit payment claim.

Then, i ever worked as a lecturer for diploma student. The job was great..and i like the environment. However i have to come back to my hometown to work as an engineer again..

Actually i was a bit regretful of my homecoming...When i became part of the company, all the qualified engineers resigned. Then, i have to report directly to the General Manager which the background is not an engineering.....This is the beginning of all the headaches. Undecisive, decision making based on hearsay and what he wants us to do..and the most stupid thing, he always think that engineer can do others cant do.(macam penyapu jak kmk org dipolah urang tua ya) and my new engineering friends keep on coming and they will resigned after servicing less than 1 year...2 years working without direction, finally, i quited.

Then, now, i am back at teaching profession. And i always wonder, what does it takes to be....somebody...

H1N1

This week my school have to be closed due to H1N1 virus which have spreaded and infected some of my students. What is H1N1 actually?is it a flu followed by high fever?Then i google thru the net n i found this ;

"Influenza A virus strains are categorized according to two proteins found on the surface of the virus: hemagglutinin (H) and neuraminidase (N). All influenza A viruses contain hemagglutinin and neuraminidase, but the structures of these proteins differ from strain to strain, due to rapid genetic mutation in the viral genome.

Influenza A virus strains are assigned an H number and an N number based on which forms of these two proteins the strain contains. There are 16 H and 9 N subtypes known in birds, but only H 1, 2 and 3, and N 1 and 2 are commonly found in humans"

Got it?Understand it?

Well, i'm not quit sure about this either but i can conclude that the flu is always in our system....but if we are infected by this virus, it will mutated in our system n becomes another flu virus...n if our body immune is not able to protect our body system to this virus, then it may kills the home human.